Friday, January 18, 2013

Moving On

Pretty soon, our place will be filled with boxes and chaos.  We are moving again.  This will be the second move in less than a year.  It is a bit funny that we stayed put for so long, and now we are like little nomads traveling throughout the city. 

I will be honest, I was not happy about moving...again.  I tried so many different ways to fix this, but I finally gave it over to Bigger Hands than mine.  Mostly, I was dreading the thoughts of another temporary home.  I didn't like the idea of  another leased year away in different place that I do not want my boys to call home. 

Then, it hit me...

It's not all bad.  It's good to learn to travel light.  It's good to broaden your horizons.  Its very good to realize that home is truly more about the people than the place...although the place is pretty important.  Mostly, I think the good is that we had to take a leap of faith to get here.  We had to step back from being in control of everything. We let go willingly of our way of life, and held it out with open arms and hands.  We trusted God that He would do His part.  He has.  He gave us great renters, nice housing, and much better health.  So why is it so easy to try and close the same hands shut that were once so willingly open?  I think if I ever truly know the answer to that, I would be levitated straight to heaven.  Not really...I jest.  But, I do know that human nature tends to be fearful and demanding.  It takes a focused effort to not be that way.  Sometimes, I find myself right in the clutches before I even realize it. 
It has been a wild ride, and we are certainly not nearing the end.  I am not even sure if there is an end.  Maybe, it will be when we finally settle in a home again, or maybe we will just realize that the journey is the destination.  Maybe we will become sheep farmers in Northern Maine... that part admittedly is a bit fuzzy, but that is OK.  Sometimes,  fuzzy is better than crystal clear. 

We are dreaming big.  We are working hard.  We are finding purpose in this new place in life.  And, for once we don't have much at all tying us down.  Pretty good -eh?  Now, I just have to remember this on my low days when I take comfort in warm chocolate and drool over the latest edition of Better Homes and Gardens Magazine.

So, with renewed vigor, I will pack it all up again and make another place home for awhile!   Bring on the boxes! The boys always love them. 

B Charmer





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