Thursday, March 4, 2010

So, the Coat Isn't Waterproof...


I was soaked...to the bone. All the lovely sunny days had passed with no problem. This day, the rain was as close to frozen as rain can get. This day my tire went flat. This day I had plans, and I found my coat failing me. I was cold, frustrated, late, and generally unhappy. My once straight hair was curling with each drop from the sky. Each curl brought more frustration. I just wanted this day to be normal. I was finally going to get to meet some new people. Finally, the hubs and I had plans! Maybe, just maybe, we could crack the door open to this little town that still doesn't feel like home. Somehow, I thought straight hair would make us more likable.

I just wanted to be anybody else anywhere else. Who was I kidding? This is normal for me. Frizzy hair, running late, flat tire---yet trying to pretend I was more put together than this! The coat said it all. It looked warm and nice, but it was a soggy mess. It wasn't holding up very well, and neither was I.

I have these preconcieved notions that if I try hard enough, look good enough, smile big enough, that I can will things to be what I think they should be. The truth always shows! Eventually, the coat soaks through....and the hair frizzes, and I am left baring the real me.

This time it was good for me. We went to the party anyway. We laughed, ate, and hopefully cracked open a few friendships... frizzy hair and all. I learned a lesson that night. I am not waterproof. I have my flaws just like the rest. My hair truly is curly despite the best products available. I am just a curly headed gal...and I am just like anybody else trying to navigate life. Some days I do a little better, some days I just squeak by. But hopefully, I am growing in grace. Hopefully, I am learning that it isn't all about me anyway. The soggy coat reminded me to rethink some things. The real me is quite ok as long as my focus is more on those around me. Another little treasure I learned...never leave home without my umbrella!

3 comments:

  1. I love the curly headed, spontaneous you! I have so many memories of laughing and having so much fun when things were just crazy. Miss you a lot! I understand too though. I think it might be the stage in life we are, but I find it hard to make and have true friends right now. Then life surprises me and I realize just how blessed I am, even in the friends area.

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  2. not bad sis. i like your blog it is fun to read. keep it up.

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  3. Thanks! Whoever it is that misses me, it is nice to be missed!

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